Leif (thinking): When my parents first got arrested, I tried following the news about it . . . It was horrible. Gave me nightmares. Finally I blocked all the keywords and stopped looking at any of it.
I only found out that my father died in prison because a classmate heard the news and mentioned it.
And my supervisor made it clear . . . if I show any curiosity about them now, it’ll be a danger sign.
I could be locked up too, if it looks like I’m at any risk of following in their footsteps.