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Dissociation Denial Diaries

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The Youtube algorithm has started putting DID channels in my suggestions. This is the result of watching a ton of “life experiences I wrote off as normal, but in retrospect that was the DID” videos.

Violet: Wow, Kallie, this is weird . . . Somebody on the net is insisting that if you have extra people in a body, none of them can know about it.

You and Kiki and Atarangi talk to each other! What, were you supposed to just . . . poof out of existence the second you noticed each other?

Kallie: Well, that sure didn’t happen . . . But, Violet? You’d be amazed how good we used to be at not noticing each other.


Kallie (thinking): Why don’t I remember how to do this? I studied! It’s not like some totally different person did the studying!

Classmates: Kallie! Hey, Kallie!

Kiki (thinking): Don’t know who that is, just keep walking . . .

Therapist: So the blue line is an average person’s level of dissociation.

Atarangi: Yes?

Therapist: And the red line is yours.

Atarangi: . . . You think that means anything?

Kiki: Sorryyyyy I didn’t make it in yesterday!

Thorne: You did. Also, you were a fire mage yesterday.

Atarangi: I hear angry voices yelling at me, all the time! How do I get rid of them?

Therapist: Have you tried asking the voices why they’re angry?

Atarangi (thinking): Did someone prank me by slipping art supplies and makeup into my cart?

Kallie: Did someone prank me by cutting my hair?!

Net comment: Where did the year go? I just blinked, and it was Cleidhe!

Kiki: What a totally normal feeling that I get all the time!

Kallie: Dissociative personality system? Hah! There’s no way we could be that.

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“Also yesterday you were a fire mage” would be a hard one to walk off.

In related “other people can actually see your soul, because magic” questions, have there ever been heartsword wielders who were plural / members of systems?

Heh, had to archive trawl this “Thorne” person. Genuinely, due to the washed-out colors, thought she was not!Sparrow again.

(And whereas it’s great that you’re trying to capture the experience of those with DID as accurately as possible, I do have to think that you’ve got some implicit leeway since very few plural systems IRL are twenty centimeters tall and pyrokinetic.)

Okay, your last word got me thinking, so just for fun…

Pyrokinesis – affecting/generating fire with the mind
Hydrokinesis – affecting/generating water with the mind (?)
Terrakinesis – affecting/generating earth with the mind (?)
Aerokinesis/Pneumakinesis – affecting/generating air with the mind (?)

Do these terms look right to people? I’ve only ever heard of pyrokinesis, but the others seem valid. Thoughts?

I’ve seen hydrokinesis as well! Terra- and aero- are new, but that’s probably what I’d do as well.

I personally especially like splitting them up to separate kinesis from genesis. Then you get pyrokinesis for manipulating fire, and pyrogenesis for creating it.

I wonder what the equivalent Greek word to mean element would be? For an umbrella term of “can manipulate/create one of the elements”….

Since I’m just guessing about the prefixes, I’m glad they sound good! Your idea about kinesis vs genesis is good too.

The ancient Greek word for element is “stoicheion” (according to one site I found), so maybe stoicheiokinesis? That’s a wild guess on my part though.

I’d just like to say… DID isn’t something to glorify. It’s dangerous, and it’s something that needs to have awareness spread about it, yes, but it’s not something cool and quirky.

DID is usually created by dangerous and traumatic circumstances. And it can come with symptoms that are stressful and hazardous unless they’re properly managed. But it is not, by itself, inherently dangerous!

There’s already a lot of fictional portrayals of DID systems that focus on their trauma, their PTSD symptoms, their struggles to connect and cooperate. Which makes sense, because those are common experiences. But it’s also possible for a system to get good mental-health treatment, learn to communicate with each other, and get in functional shape. That’s the experience I’ve always wanted to portray with the Neineikuras.

All the characters in this comic have cool moments as well as awkward ones, quirky moments and serious ones, triumphs and struggles, happy and sad times. It’s not about “glorifying” the DID — it’s about portraying people with DID as people, who aren’t inherently better or worse than anybody else.

It’s literally something where someone else takes over your body without your permission. That sounds like hell to me, and probably to a lot of other people, too. Sure, they’re people, but that means showing that this IS in fact something that can be dangerous, not just ‘Ooh, fun quirky different person in my body’. You talk about being realistic, but you can’t stick to one side- I myself haven’t read the comic, but a friend of mine has, and when I brought up DID for a different topic, he said, and I quote,
‘I got one better for you. I used to read a webcomic where a DID character was allowed to serve in a fantasy military even though she literally has moments where other personalities take over when she’s on duty. And *no one else saw this as a problem*. Oh, it gets even better than that. The system in question? It makes a running gag out of the fact that one of the personalities is a creature made out of pond scum. I quote, “WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT THE POND THING!”‘

Oh, you’re not speaking from personal experience *and* you haven’t even read the comic? Okay then.

This series has running gags about every character. Including all the non-DID ones with life circumstances that are sad, traumatic, and/or dangerous. And if we’re talking about the Pond Thing specifically, it was only planned to appear once, but I started bringing it back because readers who actually have DID said they liked it.

I know nothing about the Pond Thing thing, I’m not talking about that. That was just from the guy I talk to. I’m talking about the fact that the DID is essentially just treated as something quirky, not what it should be; Something serious.
This same dude is also talking about something about how Thorn is a slave to Lief? Or was it the other way around? Something about one buying the other out for a date or something. So again, I don’t know anything about the series, I’m just repeating his words and adding my experiences with it. I know some people who have very close DID friends as well, even if I don’t personally know anyone with DID, and I’ve literally asked them about it and they agree with me.

You literally were talking about the Pond Thing, you’re the one who brought it up in the first place!

I am sorry to hear that you have friends who say that their friends don’t like your confused misunderstanding of details you heard secondhand about a comic you haven’t read.

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